It happened when I was in 10th grade. A cold practice-room at the back of the choir room, after a school choir concert. Cornered in the small, cold room, the sound of the door shutting is something that still haunts me. He came closer, turning off the lights, I could feel him closing in. I … Continue reading Scene of the Crime
Photo by Giftpundits.com on Pexels.com First of all, for those of you who are in the United States, Happy Turkey Day! I hope that you have something planned that brings you joy and happiness, and if you don't, this day could be a great opportunity for a self-care and self-love day. I didn't want to … Continue reading Gratitude
Photo by Tan Danh on Pexels.com I don't know about you, but it doesn't take much to disrupt my sleep pattern these days. Before my trauma happened, I had minor difficulties sleeping. Those difficulties consisted of being afraid of the dark and begging my parents to leave a light on so I wouldn't be afraid. … Continue reading PTSD and Sleep
Photo by Tatiana Vavrikova on Pexels.com Whenever I am asked what survivors need, I used to stumble around and not know exactly how to answer or put my feelings into words. Today is a different story. Ask me today what a survivor of sexual assault needs and I will say: Acknowledge them. We live in … Continue reading Acknowledgment Goes A Long Way
Photo by Akwice on Pexels.com I have been trying to heal now from my attack and abuse for just over five years now, and the rollercoaster that this journey continues to be is always full of surprises; both good and bad. Usually I focus on the good, and how I turned something bad into an … Continue reading Constantly Changing Under Trauma
One thing I feel that many sexual assault survivors experience afterward is having shattered boundaries. I have known that I have issues with being able to communicate specific boundaries, so my normal reaction is to set really vague boundaries to protect myself. For example, I don't like setting particular boundaries in intimate relationships... so instead … Continue reading Trying to Build Boundaries
Being a senior in high school with a fresh diagnosis of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) was life-altering. I thought my biggest problem would be passing AP Government and Politics and getting accepted into college. Luckily, I was able to keep up amazing grades, hold down a job, and get into college. I had to … Continue reading Support Systems & Starting Over
Welcome back! Just a friendly reminder that I am not a medical professional, I am simply sharing my personal experiences to offer insight to others. Today I am going to be writing about patience. It's a loaded topic for someone with a mental disorder or any other obstacle really. Dealing with the topic of patience … Continue reading Patience
Hello again! I have spent the last few days letting the fact that I went public about having PTSD sink in, and I have had my ups and downs. I am happy to report that I feel strengthened and comforted by my decision. While I am not sure how I got here, I am thankful. … Continue reading Missing Chapters, Fears Found
The first thing I am about to say is going to be one of the most common things ever written: I never thought I would write a blog. I have had many experiences, like everyone, that have helped to shape me into the human being I am today. Some of those experiences were positive and … Continue reading Who Am I? Why Am I?
Flourishing With PTSD 